September 6, 2014
Returning to reality
Coming down hard. I have just returned to the UK after a few months backpacking through the Kingdom of Thailand and while a part of me is happy to be back with family and friends, a large part of me is home sick for Thailand.
I now have to go through what I would term a ‘Hard Landing’ not quite on the lines of coming off drugs or booze (I can only assume!) but neither the less the pain feels real and is tearing at my heart. It is the same every time I return home after a long period of wandering. I miss so much of what becomes normal everyday life, when backpacking and I equally miss the good friends I found on the way, it will take what feels an eternity to really feel that I am truly home.
I know part of this downer I feel trapped in, is due to the almost 26 hours it took to get here, from saying goodbye to the staff and friends at my last hostel at Asia BackPackers Udon Thani in North East Thailand to arriving home to a peck on the cheek from my mum and a slap on the back from my dad. Why does the journey home feel so long and why does the atmosphere on the plane feel so…empty, it is as if all the passengers were living through the same pain as me and even though the flight was mid-day people were falling off to sleep in the hope that they could avoid the inevitable return home.
Given time I know these feelings will pass and life will continue but for now I will content myself with using Facebook, to keep in touch with friends I made on the way and to live part of my life through their continued adventures.
The positive side to all this is I also know that these same feelings will drive me to plan and save for my next big adventure. See I’m feeling better already and the smile on my face has made me remember some of the great times I had on my trip, funny but I cannot for the life of me remember any of the bad times, there must have been some…. ah well it’s better to let my mind magically transport me back to Pattaya and the water mayhem that is Songkran and to majesty of the Candle Parade in Ubon Rachathani
Not much I still came across the same mixed bag of people from those who will harp on about all their exploits, just so they can make others feel inadequate, to those that were so shy it was making it difficult for people to be with them, from the funny and vibrant souls to the humourless fools and all those in between. To the girls I chased and the few that I caught to those that I avoided and most of all to the new friends I have made, yep all in all just the same as any other trip.
As I look back I note that I have achieved most of what I had set out to do and see on this adventure to Thailand and it is these memories that will alleviate some of the hurt that I feel at present, with luck console me while I return to normal and remain with me until I can raise the money to open another chapter in my travels.
Watch out world I will be back.
“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”